1. 2 years ago 

   Let Me Sign

   She was standing there by the broken tree, her hands were all twisted she was pointing at me. I was damned by the light coming out of her eyes, she spoke with a voice that disrupted the sky. She said walk on over into bitter shade, I will wrap you in my arms and you’ll know you’ve been saved’. I was out for a drink in a soho bar, the air was smoked out liked a cheap cigar. She rose out of her seat like a painted ghost. She was the woman that I wanted the most. As she reached for my arm I gave her my hand, I said ‘Lay me down easy let me understand’. As I walked through the door she was still in my head, as I entered the room she was laid there in bed. She reached out for me all twisted in black. I was on my way down, never coming back.

2. 2 years ago 

   “Its Always Been You”

   I havee doubttz he’ll finally comee to terms, i just wantt him to see how badly in lovee he gots mehh. How no onee can ever showw him watz luvv da wayy I can. Nd how I’ll always put him first in thoughtt. Nd how crazy mahh mind, body, soul, nd heartt needs, wants, nd has to have him. How nothingg in dhiss world can compare to him. How no matter how muchh i partyy, drinkk, smokee, it doesntt help mahh erasingg of him, he’s the only thingg i wantt nd can only thinkk aboutt. He’s gorgeous to eachh eye i set on him. His spanishh suckkz, but dahht isntt dahh only thingg there is to beingg dahh sweet sensiblee puertorican bol he is. His every wordd to mehh aree like shots to the heartt, his eachh embrace, thoughts from dahh startt. I’ve never ever felt this wayy b4, dahh feelings withinn of mehh aree bundledd upp becuzz of himm. I luvv himm, I hatee himm, but no matterr watt I alwayss repeat mahh returnn, just likee a heartbeatt. He’s beautiful withinn mahh eyes. Eachh breathh I take is with the thoughtt of knowinn dahht mayhbehh, just mayhbehh, he’ll see exactlyy watt he cann do to a soul. When I look into his eyess all I see is dahh things dahht can behh possible, dahh meaninn of whyy I keep on withh dahh sufferingg. All I need is answerss. An explanationn of whyy he cannott see dahh samee wayy I do? Whenn im withh himm, hiss every touchh enlightenss mehh. I see everythingg he sees, feel everythingg he feels. Whenn mahh worldd was fallingg apart, he showedd upp ndd helped pickk it up, but withh dahh momentss pastt, he noww causess dahh painn withinn mehh, noww theress justt darkness, he hass dahh thoughtz to programm dahh lightts. Dahh lightz hidden nd wontt come out, he doesntt let it go to savee mehh. Whyy cantt he openn hiss eyes? Whyy behh unknown? I luvv himm nd I cantt pretend dahtt I dontt. Theree weree timess I didntt caree wahht he didd or saidd, butt noww itss likee an addictionn, I cantt quitt dahh veryy little things he doess. Im hopelessly devotedd to his ways. Dahh sun doess not shinee as brightt as mahh smile does whenn I see himm, dahh stars in dahh nitee confronts his eyes whenn he look in mines. His each embracee counts down dahh times nd moments ivee luvedd him. Mahh heartt achess for his luvv, mahh lipsz trembles for his kiss, ndd eachh thoughtt kills mehh forr his presence. Tears spilled, blood shedd, cells torturedd, heartt demolishedd. He’s dahh reasonn for mahh teardropsz, dahh reasonn for dahh scars on mahh armm, ndd the blood on dahht knifee. He’s mahh badd romance, so badd dahht I cantt seem to nightmaree him away. Mahh stars crashess at dahh thoughtt of not having yuhh, dahh moon phases as i thinkk of losing yuhh. Yuhh’re everythingg theree is to beingg mehh, mahh personality shines into thiss worldd, everyonee sees mehh, but i see yuhh. Yuhhr ways in lifee are amazingg in mahh eyes, people treat yuhh different for it, but all i can do, is luvv yuhh. Yuhhr brown eyes engage mehh, yuhhr lips binds mehh, yuhh kill mehh. Mahh blood drips nd splatters for yuhh. Dahh heatt in a summers day, cannot explainn dahh heat dahht mahh blood burns whenn i think of yuhh. I count stars till im ovaa yuhh, but i always run out of them. I cherish each breath yuhh takee, dahht shows dahht yuhh exist, exist in mahh heart, mindd, body, ndd soul. Mahh mindd flees, eachh soul in this world I see, livingg bettha then meh. Boy lostt ndd regretting, im lost in translation, tensionn buildsz up ndd fails to spark. Mahh hearts in a warpp, i bleed withh these thoughtsz. Withh mahh heart at yuhhr grasp, it aches in pain nd frustrationsz, it begins to bleed itself dry. Bleedingg shocksz, lost timee, ndd endless lovee. He keeps avoidingg all dahh questions, im scaredd to learnn a lesson, bridges will fall ndd so i shall fall withh them.

3. 2 years ago 

   “Letter To Him”

   I know things havent really been going right. And shit isnt running good with us. I know what you must think, but we should talk. Please. We should really clear alot of shit out. Theres way too many blanks in this world and we really shouldnt be adding anymore. We’re both grown. We can talk this out right. No need for both of us to stay shut and let this pass like nothing. Theres to much tension in life. I hope you understand everything I’m saying. Its 2010 right, the beginning of a new year? So why not start fixing shit. I dont want shit to break apart anymore, its not healthy, its hard to live life as it is, so why not try to better it. 2010 means new and better things, speak up, we cant keep it under wraps any longer cause its not gonna end right at the end. You know how bad shit can end at times. So come on, step up please, show yourself that you know how to fix shit and that you need a better thought of mind. Cause no matter what, you’re ma cuz. Shit you’re everything to me, cuzzin, brother, bestfriend, you’re really important to me, so important you dont even know. I want you just to atleast help me straighten this out, im not saying you are, but if you’re scared, put it behind. No need to be frightened. Dude just think it through, you know where I live, when you ready to talk through everything come by. Dont hesitate. Open your ears, eyes, and just let shit go. Just hit me back up if you want or just come by. Like I said, you know where I live. And after this if you dont wanna talk to me anymore, i’ll understand, i’ll have to except it. No matter what, you know imaa still have mad love for you. Later cuz, just do what you think is right. Not what other people tell you is correct.

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